proudie

anyway,i haven't show off in the last post,now let's see what we got here...

i hate my bangs!!screw it

i've never won any competition before,all i have's just bundle of participation certificate,i thought this one would be the same,but...yeah maybe because this one is too lil competitior?well,congrats to me then :b
another few days i'd go to ajahn's talkshow,i'm sure this one will be great!can't wait for it :D

tough tough week

hey you!why you just can't let me rest and be peace?
         Arrrgghh!asdfdhfjfkl!@#$%^
ohmy,praise the lord i got something name wifi here-_-
         it's been like months our internet connection has been cut by the irresponsible workers!*curse them!
well,anyone must be preparedwith their ears open up bcs i'll start grumbling
         start from the project we're dealing with this minute,the ob project
we should shoot a roleplay and present it in front of the class!!god!i'm not an actress,if i happened to be in a         roleplay,idk what role am i taking.actually i'm pissed bcs lately my face got too oily to be true,hell!i wish i can passed the d-day soon and no one gotta remember any sip of the video,amen!
       another d-day was yesterday,which supposed to be a nice day bcs i was going to toastmaster's contest which is really rare,ruined by 'happy' family photoshoots,plus!now i haven't got any job so i am officially so          bored staying at home everyday with much much of helly things to be done like assignments,assignments and tests.to add more of my suffer,my lil bro are so nagging these weeks,he just can't stop crying and yelling        whenever there is the word 'school'.i wonder how could all this be worse ;s
over all,it's a tough week for me,i wish it get better soon :((
       sidechat,wonder how outfit could actually boost your mood?like today,i wore a denim jacket which i have dream for months,that's the reason i like fashion and it actually helps,a lil bit,so gracias..^^
     

ps ; these was taken in class when ms yeni's computer session,it's just so urgh!bored ;p

kidnapped is the topic

annyeongg!
just finished dinner.i think mum should open a restaurant instead of working for my auntie,her cookery is the best.>< if i am going somewhere else,that's one think i'll surely miss.
talking about going somewhere,i had my ielts test today,together with devil and rudy,huaha
don't ask me how it goes.i am bad at speaking,reading,writing and listening,that means all._. i think that's just my plus point,doing everything in half way,never focus on one,the result comes out half also,haehh
about the title,huaha,well,there's a misunderstanding back then.my mum,as usual,paranoid and find my lecturer who doesn't know a single thing,and it turns out some people finding me.it isn't my fault.my mum's the one who drop me right in front the lobby,i told her i'll turn my phone bcs that's a normal thing to do when you are in a test,sso....i don't understand why should she make it dramatical.but thanks a lot,mum.you make me the main actress today,lol!
many things to do and i am beaten off.guess what,i'll represent my class in prince and princess competition on 17 this month.wait,it's not i expect much from that.the competitiors stress me so much!we got ms A who was there in my high school,i know all~ ohmy,just wish i don't embarassed myself,thankyou
gotta do some relaxations for my beaten body,but before that,please allow me to spills a lil bit more about the questions popped on my mind recently.

why some people dreaming of other's life while they have their good ones?

why they never appreciated one's hard work?

how can some people do not care at all about themselves where ironically others care?

CNY eve oh CNY eve

nahh,here we are,09-02-13
tonight is CNY eve,or 30 meh.other family might having tua ciak or big feast with whole family now :D
unfortunately we just have simple dinner for today,but it's mum's cookery,so itr's kinda special <3
it's a bit flat while everybody's having fun and me,as usually have no activities except flying to my bed and having date with this diary and anime.i have to say that i've used to it,but you know i am a professional liar,tehe
to kill the boredom,here's some selca and shoots taken about two days ago,the study tour at pt sinar sosro with fellas ;)

new bang ;'( a bang which take 3-day eating cost

don't blame me for who i am

right,wish me luck!

rock n roll?

i just finished a very shitty assignment from a poor-unprofessional lecturer.its sucks that you pay much money for a teacher like her.she didn't say anything details about the assignment,fyi i think that's her specialty,blubbering without any meanings,then when i have printed it out,she said "it mus be bla bla bla".man,do you think our time is only to do that things?you should speak clearly so that we won't waste our time.#screwed

anyway,sorry for the complains above ;b yeah,daily life.
nothing more to write ><
so let us see what captured these days!

gorgeous brittani kline ><

no matter how life sucks,there'll be always happy moment to catch and hopes to lean on

Merry Xmas

MERRY X'MAS,EVERYONE!!

~single bells,single bells,single all the way~

Someone make this stupid-funny quote must be so pathetic,like me :b single now #whistling

anyway,i am not going to talk much today,just feel like post some random picts. :b

from cat-eyes turn to...

~the more you distrust others,the more you are distrusted to be shared secrets~

Dear diary,

last night,i finally reached my 6th terminal of bahasa,how relieving!since i've gone through 5 terminals of presentation and feel blank for the 6th,so i pick make up as the topic#sigh#shy :b

i choose taylorswift's cat eye make up as the topic and taraaa.....i did a bit messy performance in the class!owowow...firstly i was a lil bit hopeless because it actually needs more than 10 minutes to finish all the make up,and sadly,i don't practice much because i have no time.i search it on youtube and practiced it twice,once on myself(really takes 30min just to finish it) and once on model's.

although it was done in a bit hurry,only 8'33",but i really satisfied with the result!:D

the result isssssss..................

First trial XD

when narcisms attack :bb

and here we go!:D

ihiiiyyyy *dancing*

taraaaaa....<3

somebody says it looks like alligator than cat,hhikss :'(

nahh,that's all

anw,u know who's my model,guess u know :b

yepp,thanks a lot to Fanny for being my model and save my presentation!hihiii...

Right after presentation,take a shoot at Fountain <3 LoL

Still much much much to tell,but i should go to sleep now if i don't wanna be like zombie tmr :(

so bye

lots of love~^^

july wishes list

hey..it's july now!nothing special about it.it's just another new months to go.but i hope it will be better than the previous one,since june had been quiet harsh for me :b
anyway,i've the wishlist for july.here they are :

• be more mature
• be a better personality :)
• no more galau and tears
• can set my own targets
• no more fake smile
• master a song ~i'm still so so lack of playing guitar X_x 
• no more nightmares!! 

something about maturity bother me these days.maturity is needed to solve problems,but the thing is how mature a eightteen-year-old girl would be as she can face all the family problems,their conflicts and adults egoism?sometimes adults did to much childish things.they don't realize it.it seems like they're pushing us to the problems.is that something we should have in our time of growing?truly,it does make me scare of being adults.hmm..but again,maybe it's just because i'm not mature enough.

-a strong person is the one who doesn't cry.a strong person is one who quiet and shed tears for a moment and then picks up her sword and fights again-

taken from http://thehellydwellings.blogspot.com/

10 things that make me awesome

hello hello hello,hello how do you do ?i'm glad to be with you and you and you

haha..damn miss ya,my blog/just have time now..fiuh..

anw,i was thinking of these 2 days ago

they are :

• i am the best moody girl ever
• i have a great tiny weight and happy with it
• i am an icecream-holic
• i like to make myself be an extraordinary
• i am so ambitious yet so unconfident
• i fall in love too easy
• i am damn care about what ppl says about me
• i do believe in miracle and karma
• i do everything i want
• i am sparkling moonlight in darkness?(kid!)

hah..the last is from him,dunno what it means,LoL

to be honest i texted him recently,feel happy :D n bla bla bla

o,one more thing,i had a new hair cut last sunday

from 100 ppl i met,99 said it doesn't fix me at all

but what can i say?i am just happy with it!here are the photographs..taraaaa...

however,sometimes i miss my long hair..khu khu

here i am

Here I am,In this place,Here I am
Here I am ,In this place,I’m here.

Here I am,in this place,Here I am
Here I am,In this place,I’m here now

Even if it’s not enough
I’ll show how much I really love you
You may never know but
Here I am

Here I am,In this place,Here I am
Here I am ,In this place,I’m here.

Even if it’s not enough for me to show
How much I really love you
I’ll just wait for you in this place.

Even if you think it’s not enough,it’s fine
I’ll show how much I really love you
You may never know but
Here I am

You may never know,but Here I am

 

 

there's too much repetition here,but i can't find a better one > <

my valentine

honey you are my valentine
You’re my love forever
honey you are my valentine
You’re still my love even if you’ve left me

It doesn’t hurt anymore when I think of you
The hatred towards you melted a little bit
I think only about nice memories
I don’t hate you anymore
The time we’ve spent together feels like a dream
They’re not coming back, right?
If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t know, I really wouldn’t know
So thank you

honey you are my valentine
You’re my love forever
honey you are my valentine
You’re still my love even if you’ve left me

I was really hurt when you left me
I was hurt, and I hated you, but as the time goes by
The wound heals and the memories grow bigger
And I’m able to smile again
The time we’ve spent together
It won’t come back in the same precious way, right?
Because of you I was able to feel what love is
So I thank you
honey you are my valentine
You’re my love forever
honey you are my valentine
You’re still my love even if you’ve left me

I cried trying to stop you,
watching you leave me
You were like a habit,
like a painful cut,
will I be able to erase you?
Will I be able to smile again when I see you?
Back then I wasn’t confident enough
I hate you, but as the time went by my thoughts have changed
i’m thinkin’ about you all the time
i realized that you’ll always be my valentine

honey you are my valentine
You’re my love forever
honey you are my valentine

You’re still my love even if you’ve left me

what if

i'm always hesitate
about 'what if..'
today i heard somebody said "oo,,it's really easy,i can just ask my mum to buy/rent an apartment for me,then i'll be saved from the dangerous if i go abroad to study"
it makes me thought
yea,,it's now,and just NOW you can say freely like that
but,what if (i'm not praying or hoping) your parents suddenly dissappear?
what if till that time,your parents have lot of debt?
what if..you become poor?
why do you think that your parents will feed you until you are married or worst until you die?
why do you think of that instead of thinking "Can them?"
you want to know my opinion?
you better think many times again
your parents couldn't feed you forever you know
start to think maturely :)
i won't depend of my parents,start from the second i can stand myself
i don't know when and i can't predict it
but i will
o:)


i'm not saying anyone here,it's just an opinion