wishlist

dont take this too serious cause its only part of my crazy wandering!

• woke up excitedly everyday
• travel to the west part of the globe
• try matcha ice cream
• being blessed in everything
• stop complaining (like seriously)
• financial freedom for sure
• being the most gorgeous girl for my man
• having a chance to take get away for 1 week and go to places which is new to me
• having a life coach
• learn to make the life as my playground (as what i was inspired by mr Dwight)
• could be in my dream idol concert
• be free,without insecurities,worries and fear
• could stand on my own feet,not lingering my parents anymore

i typed it in half and suddenly realized that even when i planned to make a 'crazy wishlist' it comes out way too serious.

oh my god

soo....i think its all for today.i was having a bit depression,but i know it will be okay in a certain time :) This too will pass :) 

human

ohayo^^
here i am,sitting in a comfie sofa,enjoying the sunshines on sunday morning,everything sounds so nice but actually,it isn't.i'm thinking of sooooo many stuffs lately,i think 'thinker' has been on my blood haha
as you know,i'm jobless for approximately 16 days until today,it give me such a headache to stay at home and doing nothing with no money.i hv no idea how to manage all my expenses this way :( i wonder why i'm so concerned about this when others are having fun.somehow i thought i've lost my youth,omo..i woke up with headache and slightly have insomnia these several days.when somebody hv too much in their head,it's normal if they can't sleep.well,the problem is,i've to think of the bazaar which is gonna held one week more.i'm busy thinking about the menu,the vouchers,design and many others.well,i'm not saying that i don't wanna do it,i'm happy since i don't hv choice of doing other thing.but,too much in a row?please...it cause anxiety inside me.i think i hv to let go.but if i let go,no one cares of these stuffs,haihh
i just hope this pass faster so that i don't be so anxious and nervous like this...

ah,and about the title,human are just predictable sometimes,i'm referring this to one group,when i make decisions which they don't like,i was scolded,they said it as if i made terrible things.but when it comes to the things they don't wanna care,none of them even care of the decisions i made,haahh...tired.

ps : i'm called to 2 banks which i applied,but none of them give good response till now,erhhhhh