hell with all of ya,i am not here to impress you

dear diary,

i am feeling like zombie today-,- only 5 hours sleep is killing enough,added by all house works since maid has gone home,more over a,weird dream,piuhh

still,it is a day to be grateful for!grateful for still have a day to face,without much things worth to be worried,for still having my mum yelling at us.

straight to the topic,i believe i've spilled many many complaints of "being looked down","unaccepted","cornered",outnumbered and etc.if in the previous time i can only feel upset and sad,now it's different.i don't say it's no longer annoying,but i've changed my point of view.they don't live my life,they don't know anything of me,and why should i allow them to judge me?changing the view change everything :D and i can be myself whenever i want.doesn't mean directly show them my dislike-ness though.somehow we should also manage to hold on,take a deep breath and fake a smile.but after all i'm happy that i thought of these.and thanks to devil,he is my mentor of being myself and don't care what others said,that way life's easier ^^

I DON'T BREATHE JUST TO IMPRESS YOU!:)

kidnapped is the topic

annyeongg!
just finished dinner.i think mum should open a restaurant instead of working for my auntie,her cookery is the best.>< if i am going somewhere else,that's one think i'll surely miss.
talking about going somewhere,i had my ielts test today,together with devil and rudy,huaha
don't ask me how it goes.i am bad at speaking,reading,writing and listening,that means all._. i think that's just my plus point,doing everything in half way,never focus on one,the result comes out half also,haehh
about the title,huaha,well,there's a misunderstanding back then.my mum,as usual,paranoid and find my lecturer who doesn't know a single thing,and it turns out some people finding me.it isn't my fault.my mum's the one who drop me right in front the lobby,i told her i'll turn my phone bcs that's a normal thing to do when you are in a test,sso....i don't understand why should she make it dramatical.but thanks a lot,mum.you make me the main actress today,lol!
many things to do and i am beaten off.guess what,i'll represent my class in prince and princess competition on 17 this month.wait,it's not i expect much from that.the competitiors stress me so much!we got ms A who was there in my high school,i know all~ ohmy,just wish i don't embarassed myself,thankyou
gotta do some relaxations for my beaten body,but before that,please allow me to spills a lil bit more about the questions popped on my mind recently.

why some people dreaming of other's life while they have their good ones?

why they never appreciated one's hard work?

how can some people do not care at all about themselves where ironically others care?

-i am tired being the one who always find first-

what do you feel when you reply in two-minute-period and being replied after like hours?ugh..everything was just nice in the beginning and sucks in the middle.i am so enough with the persons who only find you when they need.however i don't really know how to kill my thoughts like,'oh,they are busy,they'll reply me.'and those butterflies when they replied,they pay attentions,fake,and pull me into deeper waiting.well,that is just me..i think it's been like habit.

oh,just in case you don't realize,the title of this bloggie has changed :bb

i think it sounds right when this blog has been my chronicle to pour my feelings to words,hehehe

say hell-hello

people are born with one mouth and two ears.it means we are supposed to listen more than speak.but in reality,people ALWAYS speak more rather than listen,and it never be good if you speak to much.the result is,no other,gossip.gossiping is fun and entertaining.i admit,as a human,i too sometimes do it.

but man,you guys are too much.gossiping like ai" in the market!please,do something more useful rather than judge anybody about their status.

idk,even that it maybe weird,strange or whatever,i just feel like they have no rights to judge my privacy.what i do is up to me,it's my life.but someone i respect told me that i should not be too close to someone i'm not dating on.or,telling others we are not dating when in public,we are close enough.it touched my pride.so,i decide to re-think of it.nah,i wish it's the end of the story,but why does it still hang around my mind?hadehh~

2013 now!Happy New Year!!*fireworks*
how are you,people?
7 days had passed so quickly and what's new?eerrh..not much except change
day to day,i feel more lonely.sylvia,my sepergalauan friend,has found her other half and moved on~congrats darling!
now left me,the single fighter!Lol
umm,new-new fella that has almost the same thoughts with me,k,chatted me these days,but yeah,it doesn't last long.
i also lost contact with my partner in crime,jhonson.i think he has problem with his bb and formatted it :(
since we don't meet each other anymore,it'll be so hard to find him.miss the crazy moments with him.just wish someday i can contact him again,hehe
one more,i was decreed by auntie for a new division in the company.a new challenge for me.i must more or less build a way for the company in that division,and it means,i should interact with the customers more!hihihaha,omg.i told her,that's my less point and yet she still gives me that challenge.okay,lets fight!
people change,everything change~
wish i can flow with the changes and always be happy :))

from cat-eyes turn to...

~the more you distrust others,the more you are distrusted to be shared secrets~

Dear diary,

last night,i finally reached my 6th terminal of bahasa,how relieving!since i've gone through 5 terminals of presentation and feel blank for the 6th,so i pick make up as the topic#sigh#shy :b

i choose taylorswift's cat eye make up as the topic and taraaa.....i did a bit messy performance in the class!owowow...firstly i was a lil bit hopeless because it actually needs more than 10 minutes to finish all the make up,and sadly,i don't practice much because i have no time.i search it on youtube and practiced it twice,once on myself(really takes 30min just to finish it) and once on model's.

although it was done in a bit hurry,only 8'33",but i really satisfied with the result!:D

the result isssssss..................

First trial XD

when narcisms attack :bb

and here we go!:D

ihiiiyyyy *dancing*

taraaaaa....<3

somebody says it looks like alligator than cat,hhikss :'(

nahh,that's all

anw,u know who's my model,guess u know :b

yepp,thanks a lot to Fanny for being my model and save my presentation!hihiii...

Right after presentation,take a shoot at Fountain <3 LoL

Still much much much to tell,but i should go to sleep now if i don't wanna be like zombie tmr :(

so bye

lots of love~^^

cockroach approach

Hi..night blogers ^^
Something BIG happened
yesterday after the tuition,we(me and ir) were having chit chat at my lovie room.
suddenly she screams out!aaa...!@#$$%^&%
i saw a super nasty giant cockroach with  long antena over its head then an o-my-god-chaos!
i mean we're screaming,climb up the bed(pity my lil bed),ran out of the room and so on
it was finally safely kick out from my room,but you know,it's still hanging in front of the door!
2nd chaos :|
ir was too shock to just get out,the same as me._.
can't imagine it fly over my room or was doing something when i sleep!!it must be something wrong with my room!i must clean the mess up tomorrow,means no more rest tomorrow,uurhh..
yesterdat was a memorable day,when cockroach approach
Plok Plok Plokkk


hahaha
got a bit of drama on today's post
idk why i made it this way :b
nothing to type,nice dream <3

mistakes & coffee

hi!
another spill out tonight.hehe.
i skipped my work today,again,went to cendana.
we had mr.nugroho for "5 ways to be rich" session.you know,what's taught doesn't seems complicated,but yet not easy to do.fiuh..
bad news is,i was announced as the worst worker.hooray for me -_-
i made a lotta mistakes in 1-month time,hiks
i should've be more serious!
anyway,had a bite of fun today..^^

killiney^^

nightie <3

cheer up

holaa :D
how was your days,bloggers?
some random chats tonight.
i am so much better today,cheers for me!
had a long day yesterday with my bestie,irena.hyuu hyuu
we went to free lecturing program in cendana-a lil bit disappoint with this part,not like what i thought actually-but yeah,we had funs there with the game.
the good one was we had a super fun hang out at sun,sushi-ing and blaring around the boutiques :b

~katsu don~

i'm grateful to have people who are close to me,who hate me,and who teach me how life is.
love,me :)

confession

annyeong!:D

had written 5 days ago,but yeaa...

today i'm going to write about confession

it's about my friends

sometimes i felt they are far from me

how to say..hmm,just like they are from other zone

really different with the normal us

i think there's no more us here,just them

clear,we never do things together if i don't ask about their plans

may be i am just too sensitive,haha

wish for it,damn wish we can get back to normal

oh,i've ever thought about what's my fault

but still don't have any idea

and sorry for the recent galau post!:D

honestly,today i had something that makes me so happy

guess what,i met him i met him i met him

LOL

it's funny we love each other but just met today

omooo,he's definitely different with my imagination

skinny,smile much,a lil cute but there's something less from him

haha

and also simple,sin ca simple

later on,there will be more description about him

just pray my mummy allow me to date him

aihh

that's all today

thank you for reading (:

saranghae

HOLY-day

actually i don't think that a had a really great holiday,since i worked for almost whole holiday.soon after i've got my late holiday at iec,i went to my mom's office,helping her take care of her office while she was monitoring in the field then i had to connect my mom and my auntie because she was in her great holiday in redang island..what a life,me and my sister supposed to join her to go there,but unfortunately both of us out of hotels,so we just stuck at medan,again.
talking about my holiday,i also have some good news,that is,when i went to iec's training,i was announced that i'm going to be a form teacher next term!when my coordinator told me,i was really shocked!form teacher,the 1 who lead the class!omooo..hahaha wish i could done my job well that will be soon happened tomorrow.i'm a lil bit scared because the students i got was well-knowned as gigolos!haah..

i have summarized a few bites of my holiday here,taraaa :D

cupcakes!

helloooo.....back to the silly me :p
anywhat,i'm feeling good today,you know why?
just minutes ago me and my friends made something called cupcakes!HAHA
wanna what it likes?yaaa,,i'm not sure but,,here they are

here are the junioorrr pattiserie,i looks so bad there -.-

<--mine!! with <3

that's all i guess..haha..had a big fun with them

somehow,we are missing vero dj today

she went to a vacation,how Great!

hehehe

gotta go now..bye ;*

what if

i'm always hesitate
about 'what if..'
today i heard somebody said "oo,,it's really easy,i can just ask my mum to buy/rent an apartment for me,then i'll be saved from the dangerous if i go abroad to study"
it makes me thought
yea,,it's now,and just NOW you can say freely like that
but,what if (i'm not praying or hoping) your parents suddenly dissappear?
what if till that time,your parents have lot of debt?
what if..you become poor?
why do you think that your parents will feed you until you are married or worst until you die?
why do you think of that instead of thinking "Can them?"
you want to know my opinion?
you better think many times again
your parents couldn't feed you forever you know
start to think maturely :)
i won't depend of my parents,start from the second i can stand myself
i don't know when and i can't predict it
but i will
o:)


i'm not saying anyone here,it's just an opinion

20 march 2011

heyhoo...here are some photographs taken yesterday,on vero's bday party^^ and sure we got a lot of fun there

start from left : beat, me, salvi, el, dj, yau

i always think i have a weird smile xoxo

 we take it everywhere..hahaha

can u guess who they are? :p

i think i've lost 1 of those T^T

but,nevermind,,i'll send it from the others

that's all

really had a big fun with them ><

hope our friendship never end 

see ya,xoxo