CNY eve oh CNY eve

nahh,here we are,09-02-13
tonight is CNY eve,or 30 meh.other family might having tua ciak or big feast with whole family now :D
unfortunately we just have simple dinner for today,but it's mum's cookery,so itr's kinda special <3
it's a bit flat while everybody's having fun and me,as usually have no activities except flying to my bed and having date with this diary and anime.i have to say that i've used to it,but you know i am a professional liar,tehe
to kill the boredom,here's some selca and shoots taken about two days ago,the study tour at pt sinar sosro with fellas ;)

new bang ;'( a bang which take 3-day eating cost

don't blame me for who i am

right,wish me luck!

In My Dreams

In my dreams...
i saw you
i saw your charming smile
your playful eyes..
In my dreams..
you told me you love me
you said,you are enchanted to meet me
In my dreams...
everything was awesome...
no tears no lies no betrayals
In my dreams...
i saw you,facing the same painful days

In my dreams...

revenge

i love you,and i really do.why must that heartless?after all that passed.hmm.i can't believe even a pic can beat me down into parts.think it was a revenge for what i've done to someone.but i really not deliberately did it.when will everything turn okay?:(
i'm dying this way

dreaming

i was looking at my dream that is being deemed far away

and i was standing blankly

i don't have anything left anymore

i thought about giving up everything,but...

i am standing up again 

even today step by step

i step forward carefully

my heart is full of fears

but it's an excitement i'm embracing

i am staggering and shaking

but i step forward towards

the dream that i am going to meet someday

as i'm thinking if it's going to be end like this

a fear constantly comes

i'm hesitating but...

deep inside my heart

there's unstoppable beating

that drags me forward

the dream that i'm going to meet someday

birthday

annyeongg....
how are you?hahalife's good for me...these days..and it's a good news.because i won't share sucks thing here,for now.
but you know,now i'm in high school grade 2,i'm now worrying about my college,i don't know where to continue my study,aa,..i think i don't have something special in the subjects,and i also don't know what i'm interested in..fiuuh..can you give me some advice :p
anyway,it is 5 days to go for my 17th birthday(actually it is 18 according to chinese calendar>< to be honest i like the chinese version,cause it always comes faster.haha).see,how fast time could run..omg,i want to change back into child.if can then i won't worried about my study and everything.
back to my birthday,as usual it has nothing special,got up,watching my omoni cooked noodles for me,went to school and get some greetings form my friend and may be checked the greetings on facebook,just that.o,last year i went hang out with my friends too and got a lota fun^^.
hmm,,i think i'll list what i want for my birthday this year.hey,,i just post it for fun!because here is saver than anywhere..wkkwk
okay,the first thing i wish is :everything that i done ended with good :).i wish i do better for my test,for my work and etc.the second,i wish all the ppl i love can always happy,i wish i can share my happiness to them.the 3rd,mmm..i wish  have a lot of friends,haha.then,i wish increase my salary,fufu..what else?oo,,i wish i can buy books,all books that i like,i wish i could have my own library :D i wish my new room done faster,i wish i have enough money to go to korea and meet all my idols there,i wish i have a beautiful skin,hikss..i wish i can have more time,i wish somebody,in my bday,come to my house,ask me for a 'candlelightdinner' ow ow ow..hahah,,,that's just wish you  know.i wish i find a goodman to be my couple later(not now)i wish my mum will be happy everyday.i wish for a new hairstyle also..xoxo..i also wish that i can add my good kamma :p i wish i can meet goodperson that offer good things(like my mum ever said)i wish somebody i love there,will always always happy :)

yaa,,try to count how many wishes that i've make!wkwk..you know,i'm still curious why i make so "little'~
but yeah,i can make it again next birthday...
bye for now ^^ take care

it's hard//really

i'm bad..

my thought is bad

i feel like i'm gonna explode,if i can't forget u

it's true,that i'm crazy

i thought that i've erase u n start to accept u as my friend

but in fact,i can't lie myself that i'm still thinking of ya

naive?absolutely

hmm

i'm mad when i saw u are searching for the other

it doesn't mean that i have no1 now

but,i just can't forget all the memories of us

though i've tried hard

though i've know everything

though i've done so many efforts

but still..stuck deep in my heart

can feel u everywhere

though i never meet u

i wnna ask u

what have u given to me?

a lil sweet words?no,i don't think it is

presents?haha..u are kiddin me

(sigh)

u act like shit when u pretend not read what i wrote

i know,even i'm posting in front of ur face u still don't know

are u pretending don't understand or u really don't??

but why did u pretend that we are fine?

we are as well as we never did something special?

last,i want to ask..whom do u ask for the twitter?i wanna go and kill