everything i've ever wished for

since this is a personal blog,shouldn't it be a lil more honest?

well,a few days ago,i met someone who previously stayed in my heart for quite a time,someone who let me know what's the  real pain means,just so that someone also the best part of my story.

after a very short moments,we were apart for like one and a half year until last few days,i finally get to meet him,unconcidencely of course.i honestly don't expect anything for this meeting,i came there just as a friend,but yeah you know,girls mostly will create more scenarios than just a common meeting,it's a meeting with ex bf that had been the sweetest dream of all and also the worst nightmare.

but not every story was a fairytale,the meeting was plain,i'm curious of how someone could be our world in a day but in another day is just strangers,every scenarios burn into joke,i laugh at myself for ever imagining anything would change.

everything i've ever wished for one and half year..for those nightmares..maybe not a come-back meeting,i wouldn't dare..it comes to my mind when i think about the reason of the nightmares keep hunting me..

is it because we never have a proper-goodbye?

anyhow,i'm happy just knowing that he's okay

the windflower

that times,when we are young
many says when you're young,you're free
now i question what kind of freedom does youth offer?
choosing your path?travel your imagination?not both
youth does give freedom to choose
but with all the tails of consequences we also have to bare
they said,because we are young
they said,you can find
they said,you can choose
thus it doesn't erase the fact that's called 'responsible'
they said,because we are young
yes,my dear,we are too young
like windflower we can only follow where wind wants us to...

Happy Munch-ing Day!

Holla ppl!
time passes by and there's too much to catch up these days..but because today is a holy-day,sooo trying to cover as much as i can in this lovely diary..
well,talking bout the title,today i hanged out with my sister,hanny and have lotta fun!which we barely can do in the dailies since we both are busy,hihi..
so let the picture talks as usual..

Sorry for the bad quality of pictures :( really wish my note back!after all,we only took at opal coffee since we have super big lunch there,now i know how is it like 'eat till you drop'.for me,eating is also another joy in life so i always feel happy whenever i gotta eat something superb!xoxo

Another Chapter

i met several ppl from my past today,they're : chris,juni and shierly.they are chingus from high school and you know what,when you met ppl from your past,there you understand clearly of what has already passed and can't turn back.i talked to them and it's like talking to strangers,remembering how we used to shared jokes and laughed together,even only the matter of months,it's all flew away and we turns out strangers.it makes me think what will happened between me and my present ppl?will we someday also turns to strangers?with memories?i know one thing,people don't last forever,memories does...from now on,i wanna respect more ppl and do goods as much as i can so that they can last longer#hopeso

ps : talking bout memories,passing by some of my bittersweet memories does make pinches to my heart.as i passed by 'lolita' novels shelves at gramedia,i thought of you and us^^ well,unfortunately maybe now i've lived somewhere in your farthest part of memory,but still thanks for giving me such memories to be remember and smile everytime i think of it..

Life is a show and you are the actor..
Do what you want because you are the one who owns your life not others

I feel like so ughh nowadays.This flu is killing me.The worst phase is when you get flu and sickening.Eyes and head become so heavy :(
Can't be 100 is so stressing,you know
I need a vacation,i want something new i guess.some moodboosters,yeah

We got party last sunday.Advance gathering with seniors.it was quite fun except the burning temperature and this sucks flu..
I was called to the stage,and asked to give my opinion bout life's a show and we re the actor.i didn't qualified for the time..i really don't know what to say and ughh
Just,wish i can get well soon

Taken few pictures which some says doesn't look like me and they prefer this bang,whattaya think?^^