day of disappointment vs cny eve

today,everyone knows it's a CNY eve.and it means tomorrow we're gonna celebrate spring season,in my homehometown,chinese new year equals to the coming spring season,which is why it's called "chun jie"(spring season) in mandarin.and it's been tradition for chinese people to gather with their families to have a big feast and so on.

well,i'm not here to report and explain about that though...i'm just gonna..erhh..you know,complaining like usual.idk,last night i've just listened to Ajahn bout making peace with things,but look at me now!a failed date,a fussy mum and a jobless news,what a great start of the year?i kinda outta mind these days.i'm currently designing my future(start thinking bout it makes my head even more blur),i mean,i'm 20 now,i'm not supposed to be mum's baby anymore,am i?though all this time i don't feel like it,i'm mature enough,haha

but,thinking could be so hard until it become burden for me,i guess that's why my cute lil hair won't show themselves,cause i'm too busy in making my brain burning..well..well..

back to the CNY eve,we shd've be eating dinner happily,but see,it never happens here,in my house.all of us just busy doing our stuffs and listening to mum shouting as if we're drowning and she couldn't help except for shouting.haihh..daily life...

this doodles credit to one of Chuckle Land's member

ps :i'm wondering if there's anyone who's faithfully peep out all my posts?secret admirer?haha,that'd be great if there is,because it's like somebody looking through what i think,what i've gone though and what i wish,without me knowing of course :b

dear someone out there...

maybe for others we are weird,unacceptable,doen't click together,or whatever,but what should i do?i have found the butterflies~shy,even it's only a lil bit,but well,those months you spend for me,yes,it does make me change my heart.well,i'm not a person who oversaying things,but now i admit,here,i have change my heart.at the first time,i also one of the person who think we doesn't match together,and wickedly worry about what others will say about us,but your kindness,care and patience has changed my mind :D and i've learned that listening to person will only make more problems for you,and it also proved that those person whom i listen to,i believe and i respect,turns out only sees my outcase and they only can complain everything about me,i can't be myself in front of them(read prev post)however,at least you have knew my weaknesses yet still accept me,although i can't do the same for ya :( but,maybe as time goes,we can change again?if so,i hope it's better,however,thanks,there...

hey people :D
whatsup?we got a tasty creamy post to be updated today!
like usual,i was trying some recipes with uri chingu,della and irena,for addition ~psst!
wellwellwell~it is always fun to be busy on something new,isn't it?
so,let the shoots talk!hihi^^

First trial~ Homemade Chicken Katsu Curry Rice
this was the complicated one,we spent about two ours and starved ourselves before the yummy bites.
and this is the result ><

took it as bento in the morning after

okay~that's not all,tell ya a secret,actually it tastes so salty because someone fell like 2 soupspoons of salt into the kare,omooo!and i was like . . . ohmyGod!!!we all shouts so panicly and it was chaos right there (come to think of it,it was really funny!hahaha)so,we ttried everything to save the pity kare.i swear when the first time i taste it,it's perfect already.ohgodwhy~
at last,we tend to add more water,sugar,water,sugar again and again then it turns out the kare become twice much than the first time x.X
that doesn't solve much,but,the salty taste reduce,hiuhh
and we gotta make another one next time since we still got the ingredients,of course this time,won't let any salt interrupt,for sure!nyahaha

behind the scene!excuse my oily face and weird pose,lol

chef ir is showing her skill ;B

well,you may ignore us

actually i thought this won't succeed since we didn't find anything like "japanese curry roux"
moreover,i don't even know what's the meaning of roux till now,hahaha
but,see what happened B)
even though it still a lil bit salty,but it's tasty!can't wait for another trial







Second trial~Spaghetti Agli O Lio
I ate this days before when I'm at toastmasters meeting before,so i kinda know what's the shape of real agli o lio,and that means i can compare with my own agli o lio...and..okay,it's pretty much the same,but i'm lacking on some ingredients like chicken,and black pepper and also "paprika" and maybe mushrooms?but don't worry i replace those all with what are on my fridge like carrots and corns.
So,Proudly present,this is my Agli O Lio xD

della's

mine,fufu ><

goodbye for now ^^
ahyes,
i'm now hesitating about my work.
it's not working out.
i'm thinking of resigning now and move to other place i'm bored of being blamed while i'm not wrong and also seeing my mum treated that way
i wish i could make more money so mum need not to work anymore
my aunt could be very mad at me as she's already given so manyon putting hope on my shoulders,ottoke~

Have you ever created a perfect scenario but when you wanna pour it into writing you turns out blank?
Well,that's what happened to me these days..hiuhh
My mind flew somewhere far away,it isn't there.i daydream more often and i don't give much attention to anything.what is happening in me?
If there was a person who knows everything bout ourselves,it should be our own self,but look at me now#@$$
I wish i cure asap
Goodnight world