proudie

anyway,i haven't show off in the last post,now let's see what we got here...

i hate my bangs!!screw it

i've never won any competition before,all i have's just bundle of participation certificate,i thought this one would be the same,but...yeah maybe because this one is too lil competitior?well,congrats to me then :b
another few days i'd go to ajahn's talkshow,i'm sure this one will be great!can't wait for it :D

buzy bee

i think the title has describe quite enough,i'm sooo busy these days,and eventhough now i've unoccupied,still there're many things for me to do
well,let's list it up!

• got office management project,2 project in a row which are canteen service and stand selling.don't have any idea?canteen service project is where we should give our best service including being the waiter,cashier and even dish washer!hahh....we're working too hard for free,like really.another one is stand selling,well you can see from the name,we must open a stand near the campus and making ourselves busy offering our products to people in order to reach target and it's really really really tiring.my stand sells longan ice and we must prepare each of the materials.and cause i become the secretary and idk,maybe the kepo from me,i come to like manage so many things like setting the table,register our stand for a free bazaar.selling bazaar voucher and whenever it got prblem,i'm the who'll fix it for good.i'm not saying as i'm proud of it...it's just i can't stand when something is not well-set.i think i might prefer apply to be a secretary T-T anyway,our sales is quite good,i hope it will keep increasing day by day
• meanwhile,last wednesday was toastmaster contest,club level,and because of my kepo again,i unconciously registered for two contest,int'l speech and table topic contest,so in the d-day,i must present twice,actually i've asked for resignment of table topic but they say can't.and in the end,idk how idk why,i won both of the contest.wait,don't think i'm showing off,i'm here to complain,because if you win the club level,you must continue to the area level and so on.Oh god,how can i...what should i say....
• i was called to an interview in a bank,it's a good thing remembering now i'm officially jobless,it goes pretty well,tomorrow i'll have the test.and i totally have no idea of the test,sooo just wish me luck,i need job,i'm left penniless-_-

good things keep coming and i'm grateful of it.i need to get my soldier ready,this refers to my health though.i've headache for 3 or 4 days alr,and hard to digest,i hope nothing big happens to me,cause i don't wanna see the doctor,it's a waste of money.hemmm..

wonder why i still have time to type this meanwhile my title is busy?it's because eventhough today is sunday i can't enjoy it by sleep longer,i think i've the disease of whenever something is still disturbing my mind,i can never enjoy myself.the theory of make peace is much easier than the practice.well,that something which disturb me is,there's someone who told me the exact things that i close my  eyes and my ears all this time.i strikes me straight to my mind.i know what she said is true,and it cause another war in this heart and mind,which should i choose?ottoke...

dear someone out there...

maybe for others we are weird,unacceptable,doen't click together,or whatever,but what should i do?i have found the butterflies~shy,even it's only a lil bit,but well,those months you spend for me,yes,it does make me change my heart.well,i'm not a person who oversaying things,but now i admit,here,i have change my heart.at the first time,i also one of the person who think we doesn't match together,and wickedly worry about what others will say about us,but your kindness,care and patience has changed my mind :D and i've learned that listening to person will only make more problems for you,and it also proved that those person whom i listen to,i believe and i respect,turns out only sees my outcase and they only can complain everything about me,i can't be myself in front of them(read prev post)however,at least you have knew my weaknesses yet still accept me,although i can't do the same for ya :( but,maybe as time goes,we can change again?if so,i hope it's better,however,thanks,there...

hey people :D
whatsup?we got a tasty creamy post to be updated today!
like usual,i was trying some recipes with uri chingu,della and irena,for addition ~psst!
wellwellwell~it is always fun to be busy on something new,isn't it?
so,let the shoots talk!hihi^^

First trial~ Homemade Chicken Katsu Curry Rice
this was the complicated one,we spent about two ours and starved ourselves before the yummy bites.
and this is the result ><

took it as bento in the morning after

okay~that's not all,tell ya a secret,actually it tastes so salty because someone fell like 2 soupspoons of salt into the kare,omooo!and i was like . . . ohmyGod!!!we all shouts so panicly and it was chaos right there (come to think of it,it was really funny!hahaha)so,we ttried everything to save the pity kare.i swear when the first time i taste it,it's perfect already.ohgodwhy~
at last,we tend to add more water,sugar,water,sugar again and again then it turns out the kare become twice much than the first time x.X
that doesn't solve much,but,the salty taste reduce,hiuhh
and we gotta make another one next time since we still got the ingredients,of course this time,won't let any salt interrupt,for sure!nyahaha

behind the scene!excuse my oily face and weird pose,lol

chef ir is showing her skill ;B

well,you may ignore us

actually i thought this won't succeed since we didn't find anything like "japanese curry roux"
moreover,i don't even know what's the meaning of roux till now,hahaha
but,see what happened B)
even though it still a lil bit salty,but it's tasty!can't wait for another trial







Second trial~Spaghetti Agli O Lio
I ate this days before when I'm at toastmasters meeting before,so i kinda know what's the shape of real agli o lio,and that means i can compare with my own agli o lio...and..okay,it's pretty much the same,but i'm lacking on some ingredients like chicken,and black pepper and also "paprika" and maybe mushrooms?but don't worry i replace those all with what are on my fridge like carrots and corns.
So,Proudly present,this is my Agli O Lio xD

della's

mine,fufu ><

goodbye for now ^^
ahyes,
i'm now hesitating about my work.
it's not working out.
i'm thinking of resigning now and move to other place i'm bored of being blamed while i'm not wrong and also seeing my mum treated that way
i wish i could make more money so mum need not to work anymore
my aunt could be very mad at me as she's already given so manyon putting hope on my shoulders,ottoke~

Dear diary,I miss ya so much!

dear diary~~
huwaaa....just writing those 2 words makes me feel so excited..
how long have i been lost?months?> <
booo..so many things happened that i couldn't catch my own daily journal..
well,losing my note would be another reason for my absence.
dear diary,i was robbed like 1 month ago,20th july exactly.i don't remember the exact incident since i knocked my head and everything.was brought to hospital by a very kind "ai" and fortunately,like you see,i still can breathe and share this to you~grateful for that~
i really feels kamma exists..it is there,proven..
and i'm really really thankful,seems like my stock of good kamma really safe me from this incident.
though this thing also bring me headaches,a real one..puhh
but like yin and yang,bad thing also has good good side,isn't it?
many many people came to see me and care to me
emm..
well,that's all..haha!
hmmhmm..

lets see what we got during the absence...

Another blessed day

People Change,Thing goes wrong,Shit happens,but Life goes on..

Yesterday
Everything was damned.start from the overload works,the annoying workmates,unprepared speech which end up with a dq and the worst,a picture of my foolishness..
I mean,i cried for more than a year,suffering for ppl who doesn't even care whether if i'm still living..yes,congratulations to you..longlast with her,the real longlast.10years and get married,kay?
Well,u might think i'm in the middle of super galau state
But,when i knew it,it's like a blank for a while,blackout for few moments then back to blank
I don't cry but i laugh of how foolish i hv been
Get well soon,myself ;)

The reason of the title is..

Today
I skipped my work because of the stresses and decided to give myself a break,it's not a get away.just finding a peace.
I sleep for quite long and it clear my mind enough..well,it's becoming lighter and lighter when i choose to be quite.
Well,after took a bath,i'm ready to speak to uncle neighbor,and my proposal was accepted!he agree to buy all my books
Omooo it's like a boom and i'm so happy
Like finally...
Then i eat,a lot,and have some icecreams
When my mind is clear,i can think more
Actually,i'm now thinking of applying as companion in 1 super big occasion,it'll be held in Bali
It could such a good experience for me
The matter is,i'm doubt of my english._.
And 1 of the requirements is i hv to be active._.
Well,my friend said it's worth trying..so i guess i shd go ^^wish me luck,dear

A happy me

Hello buddyyyyyyy
Have miss ya so much!
Blame all the things,flat ones,no lives here as usual..booo
Well,life goes on,yes it must but,you know,there is no any big fun indeed
But bites?coursee
Though there are so many confusing,mind-stressing problems have to be shot,like my lecturer said kyaha!
Wonder why i'm so fussy tonight that i can blubber here?
Say yes to class skipping!yeah
I skip mandarin today..it's not that i'm lazy,nyehe
But my bus left me,though it was my fault,huaha,indeed i also am so lazy to face ppl after yeah,many thoughts
So,i decided to give myself a break
But then,i remember i shd finish my project that is making speech
Ohgoshh
Peaceeee,come to meeeee ~

Well?it was sunday and my narcism needs place
So,pardon :b

I tried to make it not so many xoxo

I love you,Mum

Mine is better than yours
What crossed your mind when you listened to this statement?Agree?Disagree?
well,this statement is asked at the tts session last night.
for me,the answer is of course,yes.why?
because it's true that i feel mine is better than anybody else'(though sometimes i also grumbled and so on).mine is better because,i feel grateful for everything i have until now
lets list up the things i grateful for:

• life
• mum <3
•  someones i can trust
• music
• pretty things
• my past,the one who give me the best lesson

errh,i haven't thought of more,i'll list it up again later ^^
btw,i wanna share a bit bout mum.lately,she's been so much much better to me than in the past.until me myself kinda not believe.lol..
i skipped college today,excuse me ;b,because i got helly stomachache and i saw it,mum's rushing a bit when she brought me home.she bought me outfits even i don't order it,she made/renew my wardrobe,she even planned to decorate my room,she didn't get mad when i hang out with my friends,while my sisters' being scolded.owow..
tell you one thing,because i worked with her everyday,now i know something.mum is the real super hero,i was replacing her several days when she absent.and guess what,i think everybody else could be stress and can't bare it if they are in my mum's position,even me.too many things to be taken care of and she must make sure evrything is alright and when she arrived home,she still,have to do things.i'm a bit worry that she'd be beaten off,moreover she often feel insom these days.thinking bout those making me more stressed.haihh
i just hope the best for her,pray and let god do the rest o:)

right,gonna continue my "son of neptune" first
oyasumi~

hell with all of ya,i am not here to impress you

dear diary,

i am feeling like zombie today-,- only 5 hours sleep is killing enough,added by all house works since maid has gone home,more over a,weird dream,piuhh

still,it is a day to be grateful for!grateful for still have a day to face,without much things worth to be worried,for still having my mum yelling at us.

straight to the topic,i believe i've spilled many many complaints of "being looked down","unaccepted","cornered",outnumbered and etc.if in the previous time i can only feel upset and sad,now it's different.i don't say it's no longer annoying,but i've changed my point of view.they don't live my life,they don't know anything of me,and why should i allow them to judge me?changing the view change everything :D and i can be myself whenever i want.doesn't mean directly show them my dislike-ness though.somehow we should also manage to hold on,take a deep breath and fake a smile.but after all i'm happy that i thought of these.and thanks to devil,he is my mentor of being myself and don't care what others said,that way life's easier ^^

I DON'T BREATHE JUST TO IMPRESS YOU!:)

-i am tired being the one who always find first-

what do you feel when you reply in two-minute-period and being replied after like hours?ugh..everything was just nice in the beginning and sucks in the middle.i am so enough with the persons who only find you when they need.however i don't really know how to kill my thoughts like,'oh,they are busy,they'll reply me.'and those butterflies when they replied,they pay attentions,fake,and pull me into deeper waiting.well,that is just me..i think it's been like habit.

oh,just in case you don't realize,the title of this bloggie has changed :bb

i think it sounds right when this blog has been my chronicle to pour my feelings to words,hehehe

when you are 18 and sick

it's a rare thing i post in a day time in weekdays.you can see from the title :(

blame the stupid lecturer!

the problem is not the sickness,but is that i have to off work today :(

it's not that i am not happy because i have lots of free time relaxing myself,there is a slight of guilt inside.when i told my mum,she's like "oyeah,whatever,i guessed it" and the same reaction from my auntie.ohmy :'(

does it mean that you may not sick because you've grown up?it's not like i got much attentions when i was a child,haha

another different kind of guilt comes from,the people who care to me.kinda guilty when they are the one who is busy asking me to take rest and blablabla...

soo,think i should get well very soon so that everything's okay?

alright,just pray for me,lol

i was thinking of changing the title of this blog,what do you think?;p

love,hueii

rock n roll?

i just finished a very shitty assignment from a poor-unprofessional lecturer.its sucks that you pay much money for a teacher like her.she didn't say anything details about the assignment,fyi i think that's her specialty,blubbering without any meanings,then when i have printed it out,she said "it mus be bla bla bla".man,do you think our time is only to do that things?you should speak clearly so that we won't waste our time.#screwed

anyway,sorry for the complains above ;b yeah,daily life.
nothing more to write ><
so let us see what captured these days!

gorgeous brittani kline ><

no matter how life sucks,there'll be always happy moment to catch and hopes to lean on