buzy bee

i think the title has describe quite enough,i'm sooo busy these days,and eventhough now i've unoccupied,still there're many things for me to do
well,let's list it up!

• got office management project,2 project in a row which are canteen service and stand selling.don't have any idea?canteen service project is where we should give our best service including being the waiter,cashier and even dish washer!hahh....we're working too hard for free,like really.another one is stand selling,well you can see from the name,we must open a stand near the campus and making ourselves busy offering our products to people in order to reach target and it's really really really tiring.my stand sells longan ice and we must prepare each of the materials.and cause i become the secretary and idk,maybe the kepo from me,i come to like manage so many things like setting the table,register our stand for a free bazaar.selling bazaar voucher and whenever it got prblem,i'm the who'll fix it for good.i'm not saying as i'm proud of it...it's just i can't stand when something is not well-set.i think i might prefer apply to be a secretary T-T anyway,our sales is quite good,i hope it will keep increasing day by day
• meanwhile,last wednesday was toastmaster contest,club level,and because of my kepo again,i unconciously registered for two contest,int'l speech and table topic contest,so in the d-day,i must present twice,actually i've asked for resignment of table topic but they say can't.and in the end,idk how idk why,i won both of the contest.wait,don't think i'm showing off,i'm here to complain,because if you win the club level,you must continue to the area level and so on.Oh god,how can i...what should i say....
• i was called to an interview in a bank,it's a good thing remembering now i'm officially jobless,it goes pretty well,tomorrow i'll have the test.and i totally have no idea of the test,sooo just wish me luck,i need job,i'm left penniless-_-

good things keep coming and i'm grateful of it.i need to get my soldier ready,this refers to my health though.i've headache for 3 or 4 days alr,and hard to digest,i hope nothing big happens to me,cause i don't wanna see the doctor,it's a waste of money.hemmm..

wonder why i still have time to type this meanwhile my title is busy?it's because eventhough today is sunday i can't enjoy it by sleep longer,i think i've the disease of whenever something is still disturbing my mind,i can never enjoy myself.the theory of make peace is much easier than the practice.well,that something which disturb me is,there's someone who told me the exact things that i close my  eyes and my ears all this time.i strikes me straight to my mind.i know what she said is true,and it cause another war in this heart and mind,which should i choose?ottoke...

everything i've ever wished for

since this is a personal blog,shouldn't it be a lil more honest?

well,a few days ago,i met someone who previously stayed in my heart for quite a time,someone who let me know what's the  real pain means,just so that someone also the best part of my story.

after a very short moments,we were apart for like one and a half year until last few days,i finally get to meet him,unconcidencely of course.i honestly don't expect anything for this meeting,i came there just as a friend,but yeah you know,girls mostly will create more scenarios than just a common meeting,it's a meeting with ex bf that had been the sweetest dream of all and also the worst nightmare.

but not every story was a fairytale,the meeting was plain,i'm curious of how someone could be our world in a day but in another day is just strangers,every scenarios burn into joke,i laugh at myself for ever imagining anything would change.

everything i've ever wished for one and half year..for those nightmares..maybe not a come-back meeting,i wouldn't dare..it comes to my mind when i think about the reason of the nightmares keep hunting me..

is it because we never have a proper-goodbye?

anyhow,i'm happy just knowing that he's okay

dear someone out there...

maybe for others we are weird,unacceptable,doen't click together,or whatever,but what should i do?i have found the butterflies~shy,even it's only a lil bit,but well,those months you spend for me,yes,it does make me change my heart.well,i'm not a person who oversaying things,but now i admit,here,i have change my heart.at the first time,i also one of the person who think we doesn't match together,and wickedly worry about what others will say about us,but your kindness,care and patience has changed my mind :D and i've learned that listening to person will only make more problems for you,and it also proved that those person whom i listen to,i believe and i respect,turns out only sees my outcase and they only can complain everything about me,i can't be myself in front of them(read prev post)however,at least you have knew my weaknesses yet still accept me,although i can't do the same for ya :( but,maybe as time goes,we can change again?if so,i hope it's better,however,thanks,there...

Happy Munch-ing Day!

Holla ppl!
time passes by and there's too much to catch up these days..but because today is a holy-day,sooo trying to cover as much as i can in this lovely diary..
well,talking bout the title,today i hanged out with my sister,hanny and have lotta fun!which we barely can do in the dailies since we both are busy,hihi..
so let the picture talks as usual..

Sorry for the bad quality of pictures :( really wish my note back!after all,we only took at opal coffee since we have super big lunch there,now i know how is it like 'eat till you drop'.for me,eating is also another joy in life so i always feel happy whenever i gotta eat something superb!xoxo

Another Chapter

i met several ppl from my past today,they're : chris,juni and shierly.they are chingus from high school and you know what,when you met ppl from your past,there you understand clearly of what has already passed and can't turn back.i talked to them and it's like talking to strangers,remembering how we used to shared jokes and laughed together,even only the matter of months,it's all flew away and we turns out strangers.it makes me think what will happened between me and my present ppl?will we someday also turns to strangers?with memories?i know one thing,people don't last forever,memories does...from now on,i wanna respect more ppl and do goods as much as i can so that they can last longer#hopeso

ps : talking bout memories,passing by some of my bittersweet memories does make pinches to my heart.as i passed by 'lolita' novels shelves at gramedia,i thought of you and us^^ well,unfortunately maybe now i've lived somewhere in your farthest part of memory,but still thanks for giving me such memories to be remember and smile everytime i think of it..

Dear diary,I miss ya so much!

dear diary~~
huwaaa....just writing those 2 words makes me feel so excited..
how long have i been lost?months?> <
booo..so many things happened that i couldn't catch my own daily journal..
well,losing my note would be another reason for my absence.
dear diary,i was robbed like 1 month ago,20th july exactly.i don't remember the exact incident since i knocked my head and everything.was brought to hospital by a very kind "ai" and fortunately,like you see,i still can breathe and share this to you~grateful for that~
i really feels kamma exists..it is there,proven..
and i'm really really thankful,seems like my stock of good kamma really safe me from this incident.
though this thing also bring me headaches,a real one..puhh
but like yin and yang,bad thing also has good good side,isn't it?
many many people came to see me and care to me
emm..
well,that's all..haha!
hmmhmm..

lets see what we got during the absence...

I love you,Mum

Mine is better than yours
What crossed your mind when you listened to this statement?Agree?Disagree?
well,this statement is asked at the tts session last night.
for me,the answer is of course,yes.why?
because it's true that i feel mine is better than anybody else'(though sometimes i also grumbled and so on).mine is better because,i feel grateful for everything i have until now
lets list up the things i grateful for:

• life
• mum <3
•  someones i can trust
• music
• pretty things
• my past,the one who give me the best lesson

errh,i haven't thought of more,i'll list it up again later ^^
btw,i wanna share a bit bout mum.lately,she's been so much much better to me than in the past.until me myself kinda not believe.lol..
i skipped college today,excuse me ;b,because i got helly stomachache and i saw it,mum's rushing a bit when she brought me home.she bought me outfits even i don't order it,she made/renew my wardrobe,she even planned to decorate my room,she didn't get mad when i hang out with my friends,while my sisters' being scolded.owow..
tell you one thing,because i worked with her everyday,now i know something.mum is the real super hero,i was replacing her several days when she absent.and guess what,i think everybody else could be stress and can't bare it if they are in my mum's position,even me.too many things to be taken care of and she must make sure evrything is alright and when she arrived home,she still,have to do things.i'm a bit worry that she'd be beaten off,moreover she often feel insom these days.thinking bout those making me more stressed.haihh
i just hope the best for her,pray and let god do the rest o:)

right,gonna continue my "son of neptune" first
oyasumi~

Friend

I don't need many friends,I just need one true friend~
You never know what's in one's mind,either they like you or they are just pretending..Human is the fakest creature.they can manipulate everything including feelings,and that's what makes me become afraid of them
Because no matter how much close we are to someone,we can't know if they are planning to kill us from inside.synical hm?but that's truth..
But that's just me,ince i believe in someone,it'd be hard to change my opinion eventhough they had broke me
How nice if we all just be sincere to each other?faking makes things worst,though sometimes faking is allowed,in some cases..
However,i didn't mean i don't believe anymore at ppl.bcs in fact,i still have that one friend,who cares to me and we feel each other..just like have a twin
A friend whom you can pour all ur feelings to and whom  defend and embrace you when you got problems :)
I seldom get a friend and i'm so thankful of it
Gracias,syl

Gnight world