sad beautiful tragic love affair

today..today were a fairytale,story by story were made in the middle of life.today is where you stand and fight.

right,today we,advance'12 gonna present a tragedic story of one man and two innocent sisters who were trapped into a confusing,thrilling and full of passion feeling called,love.

Main Actor :

CA aka Aliang~when you walked pass by this man,you should be careful,because if you're not,you'll be trapped in his web and never ever getting to your real self anymore.

JT aka adek~slightly saw her,you won't expect much,she is not the type of ppl who will care of her environment.shortly speaking,she's ignorant,outside.but once you've known her,you'll realize how crazy this girl is and she's verrryyyyyyyyyyyyy sensitive towards,,feeling.

CC aka kakak~she..she...she is an active girl.i mean not that busy active,but busy mumbling,yelling at anything she saw.two words,it's 'no peace'.but she do hv a good point.everyone loves her.anywhere she goes,there'll be crowd.she's the cheerful one of all.

it all started when 3 of them meet accidentally in a party in their small village.Of course,man always make the first move,especially our man,CA.he introduce himself to the girls,like usual,with a lil bit alay style.CC who used t get along with everyone of course is pleased with that.and charles offer her a dance,they're dancing like they're childhood friends for long time.company by a mellow classical music.meanwhile,JT that time,doesn't take any mind of the view.for her,it is not important to have a date.she's happy enough with her new pinky hairband that she bought from US.

And so the time pass slowly...

buzy bee

i think the title has describe quite enough,i'm sooo busy these days,and eventhough now i've unoccupied,still there're many things for me to do
well,let's list it up!

• got office management project,2 project in a row which are canteen service and stand selling.don't have any idea?canteen service project is where we should give our best service including being the waiter,cashier and even dish washer!hahh....we're working too hard for free,like really.another one is stand selling,well you can see from the name,we must open a stand near the campus and making ourselves busy offering our products to people in order to reach target and it's really really really tiring.my stand sells longan ice and we must prepare each of the materials.and cause i become the secretary and idk,maybe the kepo from me,i come to like manage so many things like setting the table,register our stand for a free bazaar.selling bazaar voucher and whenever it got prblem,i'm the who'll fix it for good.i'm not saying as i'm proud of it...it's just i can't stand when something is not well-set.i think i might prefer apply to be a secretary T-T anyway,our sales is quite good,i hope it will keep increasing day by day
• meanwhile,last wednesday was toastmaster contest,club level,and because of my kepo again,i unconciously registered for two contest,int'l speech and table topic contest,so in the d-day,i must present twice,actually i've asked for resignment of table topic but they say can't.and in the end,idk how idk why,i won both of the contest.wait,don't think i'm showing off,i'm here to complain,because if you win the club level,you must continue to the area level and so on.Oh god,how can i...what should i say....
• i was called to an interview in a bank,it's a good thing remembering now i'm officially jobless,it goes pretty well,tomorrow i'll have the test.and i totally have no idea of the test,sooo just wish me luck,i need job,i'm left penniless-_-

good things keep coming and i'm grateful of it.i need to get my soldier ready,this refers to my health though.i've headache for 3 or 4 days alr,and hard to digest,i hope nothing big happens to me,cause i don't wanna see the doctor,it's a waste of money.hemmm..

wonder why i still have time to type this meanwhile my title is busy?it's because eventhough today is sunday i can't enjoy it by sleep longer,i think i've the disease of whenever something is still disturbing my mind,i can never enjoy myself.the theory of make peace is much easier than the practice.well,that something which disturb me is,there's someone who told me the exact things that i close my  eyes and my ears all this time.i strikes me straight to my mind.i know what she said is true,and it cause another war in this heart and mind,which should i choose?ottoke...

a peace mind

honestly,i'm not sure what i wanna say this time,cause lately i've just passed a very hard time regarding my relationship.things are just so funny when both people are loving each other,but however they make it,there's no way they can understand about each other.understand what our couple wants and needs,isn't it the most basic ingredients of love?when the two can't tolerate each other anymore,it shouldn't be forced,should it?

but well,that's why poeple said love is blind,don't care how much differences or fights,as long as there's still a feeling,they could carry on.i sorta believe of that.

my minds are tired,everything on me is just so heavy.until the point of i wanna shout out and just sleep for the whole time.

but then,it doesn't give me any sollutions,so i decided to make peace of it.make peace of whatever is surrounding me,make peace of what bothers me,make peace of myself.it's so very very hard tough jobs for me to make peace.you know me,i'm like have tons of thoughts in my mind,it's like giant trash can.but someone said i should be a trash can without the down side,so it's blank.i hope i can be.i'll learn to...

everything i've ever wished for

since this is a personal blog,shouldn't it be a lil more honest?

well,a few days ago,i met someone who previously stayed in my heart for quite a time,someone who let me know what's the  real pain means,just so that someone also the best part of my story.

after a very short moments,we were apart for like one and a half year until last few days,i finally get to meet him,unconcidencely of course.i honestly don't expect anything for this meeting,i came there just as a friend,but yeah you know,girls mostly will create more scenarios than just a common meeting,it's a meeting with ex bf that had been the sweetest dream of all and also the worst nightmare.

but not every story was a fairytale,the meeting was plain,i'm curious of how someone could be our world in a day but in another day is just strangers,every scenarios burn into joke,i laugh at myself for ever imagining anything would change.

everything i've ever wished for one and half year..for those nightmares..maybe not a come-back meeting,i wouldn't dare..it comes to my mind when i think about the reason of the nightmares keep hunting me..

is it because we never have a proper-goodbye?

anyhow,i'm happy just knowing that he's okay

the windflower

that times,when we are young
many says when you're young,you're free
now i question what kind of freedom does youth offer?
choosing your path?travel your imagination?not both
youth does give freedom to choose
but with all the tails of consequences we also have to bare
they said,because we are young
they said,you can find
they said,you can choose
thus it doesn't erase the fact that's called 'responsible'
they said,because we are young
yes,my dear,we are too young
like windflower we can only follow where wind wants us to...

Happy Munch-ing Day!

Holla ppl!
time passes by and there's too much to catch up these days..but because today is a holy-day,sooo trying to cover as much as i can in this lovely diary..
well,talking bout the title,today i hanged out with my sister,hanny and have lotta fun!which we barely can do in the dailies since we both are busy,hihi..
so let the picture talks as usual..

Sorry for the bad quality of pictures :( really wish my note back!after all,we only took at opal coffee since we have super big lunch there,now i know how is it like 'eat till you drop'.for me,eating is also another joy in life so i always feel happy whenever i gotta eat something superb!xoxo

Another Chapter

i met several ppl from my past today,they're : chris,juni and shierly.they are chingus from high school and you know what,when you met ppl from your past,there you understand clearly of what has already passed and can't turn back.i talked to them and it's like talking to strangers,remembering how we used to shared jokes and laughed together,even only the matter of months,it's all flew away and we turns out strangers.it makes me think what will happened between me and my present ppl?will we someday also turns to strangers?with memories?i know one thing,people don't last forever,memories does...from now on,i wanna respect more ppl and do goods as much as i can so that they can last longer#hopeso

ps : talking bout memories,passing by some of my bittersweet memories does make pinches to my heart.as i passed by 'lolita' novels shelves at gramedia,i thought of you and us^^ well,unfortunately maybe now i've lived somewhere in your farthest part of memory,but still thanks for giving me such memories to be remember and smile everytime i think of it..

Dear John

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You paint me a blue sky and go back and turn it to rain

And I lived in your chess game, but you changed the rules everyday

Wondering which version of you I might get on the phone tonight

Well, I stopped picking up and this song is to let you know why

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone

Don't think I was too young to be messed with?

The girl in the dress cried the whole way home

I should've known..

Blue isn't it?I thought i was special all this time but in fact,i'm actually nothing..

well,i kinda realize that it's not worth wasting my time for...

So bye...

Thank You

Thank you~
For still giving me a day to breath,loved and cheers~
Even it's not the best one,still,thanks :)
And i wish,the coming days will be more colorful and worth thanking for~~♡