11.12.13

when joke goes to far...
everyone says that today is such a special day,but for me it's a hell.i really really deadly hate today!there's nothing to be grateful for!snd about that joke,maybe you think it's funny,bitches!but it is not at all to the object!how can you creatures says such a bad disgusting thing about someone?previously i thought you're all fun and i was so addicted to you guys,but now,i don't know what wrong from me that you can harrass me,saying something like i'm just a wore cloth which you usually used to rub your ass!how can you say that and still laugh like it's funny,now i ask you,if i make you become the object of those harrassment,how would you feel,huh?i think you'll be just fine because you're a bitch....you guys are just like the pretty lil liar girls,well,instead ugly lil liars,they're all friend but they spoke about each other,lie to each other but worse than them,you spoke about one you yourself call a buddy!i can't believe it...only several weeks ago,you're my bestfriends,but now it really seems like you guys only talk to me just to laugh at me and everything i do is wrong for you guys..i hate you!you make no peace of me!!!i wish you got your kamma very soon!

Guilt and Ego

Okay,here we go
Have you ever did a mistake?don't ya lie.it's clear that everyone ever make mistakes.often maybe
Sometimes it could be a big mistake and sometimes the mistake can be called accident..
Now imagine that you are the one who made the mistake,a big? Mistake that caused your bestie trouble,caused the friendship shaken and so on,what do you feel?GUILTY
Even that you've tried to explain and clean the misunderstanding,no one believe you really sorry.yeah,that's what we called "once you make mistake,no one will believe you anymore"
I don't get the thing,i did mistake,i apologized,i've been mad,i've been stamped,my friendship broke and i cried.but i still don't get it.
I just wonder if my big ego was the cause of the change in me.eventhough i deserve to be mad to,but my self esteem refuse the stamps and all the words tht he gave me.i hate it,and i don't think we can be back to normal,though we can,i think it'd be hard.i don't wish for it.so lets hope,lets hope it doesn't last long.i miss you,bitch!