THERE WILL BE SOMEDAY,

WHEN I FORGET ALL ABOUT YOU...

lessons

annyeong ^^
everybody does have good day and bad day.when you're in a good day,everything seems so fine.but those days won't last forever.same as bad days,THIS TOO WILL PAST!
think i've walk past it!i pass the exams,the bad days,and nightmares (i hope,i'm not really sure)
however i do feel a little relieved today.though i'm still in process to let go,but congrats me,i'm still the winner :) sometimes i prefer to have a character like i-don't care-at-all.life must be so much easier that way.
tell ya a thing,i'm learning to play guitar now!:b della is my big laose!haha
first lesson,cut your nails-_-
but,the 2nd day,i pause it,my hands swollen...it's really hard to have such small hands if you wanna play guitar.anw,fighting for me >~<
another good news is.......
My CN-Blue finally arrived from korea.yey!Big thanks to uncle and auntie who bought it for me when they even dunno korean language!

MinHyuk oppa~ <3

mellow sunday

hi!still with the mellow me.it's sunday,i supposed to enjoy my only holiday after whole week stuck with the business.but what can i do?those kind nightmares still be my ghost.dad bought my sister teddy today.you know,it remember me of mine.i was thinking about him,how did he choose it,how did he gave me,how he made that day become unforgettable :(
i used to think this way.i lost myself in a daydream of him.everything.the way he smile,made my day,the way he said 'love you' and even the moment we tied our tinies for all those broken promises.it sucks when i realize it's just memories now.hmm.get well soon myself!!hwaiting!

30 march 2012

revenge

i love you,and i really do.why must that heartless?after all that passed.hmm.i can't believe even a pic can beat me down into parts.think it was a revenge for what i've done to someone.but i really not deliberately did it.when will everything turn okay?:(
i'm dying this way

white horse

say you're sorry that face of an angel comes out just when you need it to

as i paces back and forth all this time cause i honestly believe in you

holding on the days drag on,stupid girl

i should've known,i should've known

that i'm not a princess,this ain't a fairytale

i'm not the one who you'll sweep off her feet lead her up the stairwell

i was a dreamer before you went and let me down

now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around

baby i was naive got lost in your eyes never really had a chance

i had so many dreams about you and me

happy endings ,now i know

...

and there you are on your knees

begging for forgiveness,begging for me

just like i always wanted,but i'm so sorry

cause,i am not your princess,this ain't a fairytale!

i'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well

this is a big world,that was a small town

...

try and catch me now

oh,it's too late to catch me now

this is just too adequate with my feeling.yeahh
enjoy it <3

what i feel_now

i'm not in mood to say hello to you
just need to spill out now..like usual
you know,this week i made something wrong,maybe
i clarified my our relationship
me  : i want to know,,what is our relationship now,i need you to answer this,please
him : hueii,your picts are so awesome
me  : hey,,why don't you just answer?
him : eerrh..i don't know,i'm searching for an answer
me  : okayy,that's good.tell me if you know :)
2 days later..
me : do you remember,you promised me an answer
him : i love you i wanna be with you,but.................i don't have anything,i'm useless
me  : i just need an answer of what relationship is there between us!no\\
him : how if i said..umm..we are just best friend?sorry..
me  : after a long long long silence.............okay,so...we are just friend :D
him : ...

do you know how upset am i?i think you wouldn't know
honestly i regret everything!i regret,of my idiot question
now i have to pretend that he isn't good for me,he isn't the one i love,that his words nothing to me,that i'm just FINE
in fact i don't..
but..it did prove someone's word
what can i do? 

loving you

it started from friends

then we get closer

till one day you said it to me

you said you want me to be your couple

to be someone whom you will share all your love

i believed in you

really...

everything gone well that days

after a couple of month,you want us to break up

what could i say?

should i say 'don't go boy.i need you here,i'm still loving you,don't go when i'm still loving you'

even if i really said that to you

will something change?

i think no

you stand still on your ego

you don't have the same feeling like me

you don't know how it feel

till now,i'm still dreaming

though there're a lot of impossibilities between us

eventhough i knew that girl

no one can stop me to dream

what should i do?