i admit

today is really bitch day.but it's okay.i'm fine enough to not suicide..here is how it went.i went to school for some matters.i thought i would be fine in the beginning.strike one,he entered.strike two,saw his incredible heartless laugh.he laugh and doing everything like never ever happened before.damn!calm,i'm still fine.but like a movie,all the memories burst out in my mind.hmm~honestly it's really hard when you have to keep enduring your true feelings.every cells in my mind like shouting "hold on!you have to keep smiling!!give your best!i'm strong!i don't need it,i don't miss him at all,i wish nothing,nothing gonna happen even you show your pain"

i admit

soon when i got my bed,i cried like i never did.i know it's stupid.but i just can't hold it anymore.it hits me to have this kind of matter.dying when nobody cares.i don't even know how long this nightmare will resume.