flood

hey.how's life?have so many thoughts recently.wanna know abt the nightmare?sure,it's still messing up myself till now.hmm..
right to the point,he's going two and a half days more.doesn't mean it has something to do with me or him.it's just a continuous hope and unstoppable tears to hold.i really really don't understand why it can bother me a lot.i wish i can just throw it anywhere else.not stay in my full mind :(
i can't stop thinking of how we used to be,even it happened in a short time.
i wrote a letter last night and idk where this thought from.but,the result sounds like
i've never want things this much before.i can give everything up,but not this one.please...
have you ever feel like this?
after all,these thoughts have taken my mood damn much.even my appetite,all i want now is vomit!!