day of disappointment vs cny eve

today,everyone knows it's a CNY eve.and it means tomorrow we're gonna celebrate spring season,in my homehometown,chinese new year equals to the coming spring season,which is why it's called "chun jie"(spring season) in mandarin.and it's been tradition for chinese people to gather with their families to have a big feast and so on.

well,i'm not here to report and explain about that though...i'm just gonna..erhh..you know,complaining like usual.idk,last night i've just listened to Ajahn bout making peace with things,but look at me now!a failed date,a fussy mum and a jobless news,what a great start of the year?i kinda outta mind these days.i'm currently designing my future(start thinking bout it makes my head even more blur),i mean,i'm 20 now,i'm not supposed to be mum's baby anymore,am i?though all this time i don't feel like it,i'm mature enough,haha

but,thinking could be so hard until it become burden for me,i guess that's why my cute lil hair won't show themselves,cause i'm too busy in making my brain burning..well..well..

back to the CNY eve,we shd've be eating dinner happily,but see,it never happens here,in my house.all of us just busy doing our stuffs and listening to mum shouting as if we're drowning and she couldn't help except for shouting.haihh..daily life...

this doodles credit to one of Chuckle Land's member

ps :i'm wondering if there's anyone who's faithfully peep out all my posts?secret admirer?haha,that'd be great if there is,because it's like somebody looking through what i think,what i've gone though and what i wish,without me knowing of course :b