when i'm silent

to tell you the truth,i'm not that kind of drama queen,not until that level,eventhough i have scenarios over my head and i often overthink,but.. when i'm bad,i just..express how i feel.
have you ever had someone for the first time in your life?like someone who give meaning to your life?someone whom you trust with all your heart and you are trusting them that they'll not broke you?well,love's always like that.we,meet,fall,broke and died.i thought this was like 'begin again' but well,it's just another ugly ending that i get.i wonder what's wrong with me by getting those endings...often,i trust someone 'again' after being betrayed for many may times.this is just so frustrating.if that's love,why people are really addict to love?why people can stay in love?what's true love's meaning if it's just like never ending war in this heart.tsktsk..
fool you,cindy...

a peace mind

honestly,i'm not sure what i wanna say this time,cause lately i've just passed a very hard time regarding my relationship.things are just so funny when both people are loving each other,but however they make it,there's no way they can understand about each other.understand what our couple wants and needs,isn't it the most basic ingredients of love?when the two can't tolerate each other anymore,it shouldn't be forced,should it?

but well,that's why poeple said love is blind,don't care how much differences or fights,as long as there's still a feeling,they could carry on.i sorta believe of that.

my minds are tired,everything on me is just so heavy.until the point of i wanna shout out and just sleep for the whole time.

but then,it doesn't give me any sollutions,so i decided to make peace of it.make peace of whatever is surrounding me,make peace of what bothers me,make peace of myself.it's so very very hard tough jobs for me to make peace.you know me,i'm like have tons of thoughts in my mind,it's like giant trash can.but someone said i should be a trash can without the down side,so it's blank.i hope i can be.i'll learn to...

STOP PRETENDING LIKE YOU CARE

The highway won't hold you tonight
The highway don't know you're alive
The highway don't care if you're all alone
But I do, I do.
The highway won't dry your tears
The highway don't need you here
The highway don't care if you're coming home
But I do, I do.

You're trying not to let the first tear fall out
Trying not to think about turning around

super sick day

i'm too sick to describe today,that's all.

thanks for people i can be crazy with

shout out to hokkian chinese new year!
well,i may admit it's not a bad holiday though,especially the part of receiving angpao :b
so today i'm gonna open up about some people whom i can be crazy with,i never talked in detail about person in this blog(i realized it).it's just,i don't know,i think i am that someone who is insecure enough,i feel that today i might love you,i might make you my priority,but yeah,sometimes things happen,we never know...
but i'm trying to live survive today,so i'd like to thanks to people whom i can be crazy with,we do silly things together,talks about evrything without anxious,play like bitches,and over all,they give me that feeling of comfortable.you can't just simply say hi to someone and the day after you can be crazy or who your real self are directly.we all know,this society sucks,no matter you do the right things or the wrong ones,they will ALWAYS judge you.so once you find that people who accept who you are,it feels real good :)