Toastmaster

Weird title,huh?
Toastmaster is an organization where they teach about leadership and public speaking,and at my college,we got this subject.in every session,we will got a fixed schedule and each of us must go in front and talk about certain topics.more or less it's like speechs i did in senior high.but here we are taught more about the mechanism and technic.
Impromptu speech is never my favorite,unfortunately,we got it EVERY session..fuuhh
I always blubber unclearly about things and i feel bad for it :(
But here is me,becoming the fav impromptu speech,it's bcs the seniors haven't come out,hoho
All the seniors are quite.friendly ._.
Actually they are good,but not friendly enough..not likely to adapt

Well,this' the picture taken ;b

I love you,Mum

Mine is better than yours
What crossed your mind when you listened to this statement?Agree?Disagree?
well,this statement is asked at the tts session last night.
for me,the answer is of course,yes.why?
because it's true that i feel mine is better than anybody else'(though sometimes i also grumbled and so on).mine is better because,i feel grateful for everything i have until now
lets list up the things i grateful for:

• life
• mum <3
•  someones i can trust
• music
• pretty things
• my past,the one who give me the best lesson

errh,i haven't thought of more,i'll list it up again later ^^
btw,i wanna share a bit bout mum.lately,she's been so much much better to me than in the past.until me myself kinda not believe.lol..
i skipped college today,excuse me ;b,because i got helly stomachache and i saw it,mum's rushing a bit when she brought me home.she bought me outfits even i don't order it,she made/renew my wardrobe,she even planned to decorate my room,she didn't get mad when i hang out with my friends,while my sisters' being scolded.owow..
tell you one thing,because i worked with her everyday,now i know something.mum is the real super hero,i was replacing her several days when she absent.and guess what,i think everybody else could be stress and can't bare it if they are in my mum's position,even me.too many things to be taken care of and she must make sure evrything is alright and when she arrived home,she still,have to do things.i'm a bit worry that she'd be beaten off,moreover she often feel insom these days.thinking bout those making me more stressed.haihh
i just hope the best for her,pray and let god do the rest o:)

right,gonna continue my "son of neptune" first
oyasumi~

There i was again tonight,forcing laughter,faking smile...
Today is not the bright one,i feel lost,unaccepted.my old disease come again hiuh
I knew how it will end and it end exactly like what i know.i'm just a second choice and treated like second.you know how..i don't wanna explain it.its sucks for having this kinda feeling.and still you have to endure it no matter what because you got mo choice
Though,i want to slap them and say  i'm not a second choice,and they are the one who should be treated like that,but..you just do

I learned to give not because i have Many but because i know how it feels to have Nothing~

Well,honestly i just wanna be accepted for several ppl,being their number 1,first priority n so on..
So,case closed!

Life is a show and you are the actor..
Do what you want because you are the one who owns your life not others

I feel like so ughh nowadays.This flu is killing me.The worst phase is when you get flu and sickening.Eyes and head become so heavy :(
Can't be 100 is so stressing,you know
I need a vacation,i want something new i guess.some moodboosters,yeah

We got party last sunday.Advance gathering with seniors.it was quite fun except the burning temperature and this sucks flu..
I was called to the stage,and asked to give my opinion bout life's a show and we re the actor.i didn't qualified for the time..i really don't know what to say and ughh
Just,wish i can get well soon

Taken few pictures which some says doesn't look like me and they prefer this bang,whattaya think?^^

Friend

I don't need many friends,I just need one true friend~
You never know what's in one's mind,either they like you or they are just pretending..Human is the fakest creature.they can manipulate everything including feelings,and that's what makes me become afraid of them
Because no matter how much close we are to someone,we can't know if they are planning to kill us from inside.synical hm?but that's truth..
But that's just me,ince i believe in someone,it'd be hard to change my opinion eventhough they had broke me
How nice if we all just be sincere to each other?faking makes things worst,though sometimes faking is allowed,in some cases..
However,i didn't mean i don't believe anymore at ppl.bcs in fact,i still have that one friend,who cares to me and we feel each other..just like have a twin
A friend whom you can pour all ur feelings to and whom  defend and embrace you when you got problems :)
I seldom get a friend and i'm so thankful of it
Gracias,syl

Gnight world