hell with all of ya,i am not here to impress you

dear diary,

i am feeling like zombie today-,- only 5 hours sleep is killing enough,added by all house works since maid has gone home,more over a,weird dream,piuhh

still,it is a day to be grateful for!grateful for still have a day to face,without much things worth to be worried,for still having my mum yelling at us.

straight to the topic,i believe i've spilled many many complaints of "being looked down","unaccepted","cornered",outnumbered and etc.if in the previous time i can only feel upset and sad,now it's different.i don't say it's no longer annoying,but i've changed my point of view.they don't live my life,they don't know anything of me,and why should i allow them to judge me?changing the view change everything :D and i can be myself whenever i want.doesn't mean directly show them my dislike-ness though.somehow we should also manage to hold on,take a deep breath and fake a smile.but after all i'm happy that i thought of these.and thanks to devil,he is my mentor of being myself and don't care what others said,that way life's easier ^^

I DON'T BREATHE JUST TO IMPRESS YOU!:)

kidnapped is the topic

annyeongg!
just finished dinner.i think mum should open a restaurant instead of working for my auntie,her cookery is the best.>< if i am going somewhere else,that's one think i'll surely miss.
talking about going somewhere,i had my ielts test today,together with devil and rudy,huaha
don't ask me how it goes.i am bad at speaking,reading,writing and listening,that means all._. i think that's just my plus point,doing everything in half way,never focus on one,the result comes out half also,haehh
about the title,huaha,well,there's a misunderstanding back then.my mum,as usual,paranoid and find my lecturer who doesn't know a single thing,and it turns out some people finding me.it isn't my fault.my mum's the one who drop me right in front the lobby,i told her i'll turn my phone bcs that's a normal thing to do when you are in a test,sso....i don't understand why should she make it dramatical.but thanks a lot,mum.you make me the main actress today,lol!
many things to do and i am beaten off.guess what,i'll represent my class in prince and princess competition on 17 this month.wait,it's not i expect much from that.the competitiors stress me so much!we got ms A who was there in my high school,i know all~ ohmy,just wish i don't embarassed myself,thankyou
gotta do some relaxations for my beaten body,but before that,please allow me to spills a lil bit more about the questions popped on my mind recently.

why some people dreaming of other's life while they have their good ones?

why they never appreciated one's hard work?

how can some people do not care at all about themselves where ironically others care?