i'm mad..i need to write now

i don't know..i don't know!i'm really uncontrolable right now.u know,i've just read his messages secretly to his friend.u know what he asked?'hey,bro.what's wrong with ms.f (THE GIRL I LOVE THE MOST)huh?tell me,if u not tell me i'm gonna kill u'yaah..somekind like that.u know boy?i wanna shout this to you "I HATE YOU BOY,IF U NEVER LOVE ME,THEN NEVER EVER LET mE FALL FOR YOU!YOU ABSOLUTELY NOT WORTH FOR IT!!"aaaaaaaaaaaaa
what am i?i'm broken heart and damn need a place to shout and to forget him immediately,i don't wanna be too fantastic too 'alay' with talking these to my friends.then,you know,they didn't give me solution.
boy,sorry for removed your facebook,sorry for unfollowed you.and thanks god for 'unable to message him' now.
hmm..really..to be honest,i still l*** him,and still h*** that his attitudes really show he love me,or at least loved me.now,i don't believe anymore that u ever love me,how bad is that?haha(i know you even don't care what i feel.what you care is :what the hell is your sweetheart doing?how is she doing without you.you will worry about is ishe gazing at the sky now?o,yeah,omygod,she's my real juliet,isn't it?)
and,for you b**ch,congratz,u win of me..enjoy your day with him,okay?i'm gonna die calmly without disturbing your dreams with him,good right?i even can imagine u've been dream it for a long time.
goodbye,love,saranghee.........

i have another something bother me .here,i always saw wherever,,a mum,,give a big attention to his daughter.they give the best for them.at least,that is what happened to my friends and ppl around me.but what?my mum never give it to me.i'm just worry about something,and i told her to bring me to doctor or expert.hmm,she doesn't care at all.what can i do?who can help me?sometime i think growing up and fall in love isn't a good idea.

sometimes i think i must have a place just for share,u know?just chat and say whatever you thinking now without worrying other's opinion,but in fact,u can't talk it to anyone,so..i choose writing.
anyway,this is just nonsense.u can skip it if you want